Monster War.

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hmm... it has been like i tink almost a week since i last blogged... well... nothin much has changed tis past week except tat now well, as usual i didnt get enuf sleep... hav been stayin at samar after work n juz hangin out, goin home in e mornin... haha... was stressed out... didnt wan 2 brin my problems to home... it was fun hangin out wit e pple there... haha... all i noe tat tis weekend im goin 2 b RELI RELI RELI tired n busy wit work... but its ok... im goin 2 withstand it... coz only 2 more weeks till skool starts n i still havent started my journal n project research for my CDS... haiz... die2... =p oh ya... as u noticed, i changed my blogskin... AT LAST!!! =p anyhow, hope its much better ah though i noe it can b improved but howevr, i dun tink now is e rite time coz i juz came back home at 8 am juz now n m doin tis... need 2 sleep coz workin at 6pm though its supposed 2 b my off day... asked for a lot of work tis week coz i wan e money...

i noe tat somehow im neglectin lots of stuff like for example rock climbin, e business thingy, my JOURNAL n PROJECT, the FOC thingy which rite now im supposed 2 attend the camp n e last thin tat im tryin not 2 neglect is Nur Ikhwan... n of coz my family n frenz... haiz... i hav 2 much stuff in my mind rite now... nothin new there... haha... theres quite a few kinda developments goin on... haha... i also dunno ah wats goin on... haiz... reli damn confused... rite now also like haiz... a few guys is like interested in me n all... but then im not sure u see... i gues for now i dun wan 2 like any1... juz frenz n nothin more... haiz... coz its like reli hard to 4get ur 1st love even though he cant stand bein wit u anymore... haiz... tat part hurts... its been 2 months since e break up n still, e pain is there... its always there whenevr i c him n unfortunately, i c him almost evry day bcoz of work... 1 thin i cant stand is tat we didnt talk... theres a reason y i didnt talk 2 him... haiz...

yesterday nite after work, basically me, huda, adil, zaki n him wen 2 sandwich garden 2 meet up fareed... sheesha for awhile... then went 2 play pool... after tat zaki belanja play bowlin... haha... after tat we all sat at e coffeeshop n drink tea while eatin satay... =p at arnd 3 we finally went our seperate ways... huda n zaki took a taxi to woodlands... fareed n him went somewhere takin e 1st train home while me n adil walked from bugis to eunos... haha... waited for e 1st bus somehow at eunos... haiz... e last time i walked tis far was wit him.... haiz... but tis is more further... haha... had a nice time wit adil also ah... can talk2 wit him n all... haiz...

work now is basically fun somehow... well, tryin 2 hav fun... after work then i start thinkin abt my problems... i reli juz wan my heart n brains 2 b taken out... haha... =p it is goin 2 b a LoOoooNggg weekend coz i'll b workin from 6pm to 7am n some more goin 2 work wit him... haiz... he also dun wan 2 work wit me... oh well... better i gues... he judge me 2 fast... he only remembers my bad stuff until already makin me tink tat i dun hav anythin good abt myself... my life changed when i was wit him... now too... haiz... oh well... i dunno wat else to say... juz tat i hope we can talk again n somehow b frenz... sort out evrythin n start back from e beginnin... tataz pple... i need 2 sleep...