assalamualaikum.

it has been awhile since i updated.

oh well.
cant help it ahh.

been really busy with projects.
sheeeshhh. -_-'

anyhow,
yeahh.

i finally post up the photos.
heh.

was during the tp open house.
18-20 january.
yeahh.

luckily theres aida for me to 'fight' with.
or else.
hmmmm.

i would just be stuck with doing the bunga tp. -_-'

actually,
im really tired now.

this 12 days since the last update,
has been quite rough on me.

haiz.

i would just love it when my projects are all done.
but.
hmmmm.

there are also other stuff too.
haiz.

whateverr larrr.

actually i got lots to say but,
i think i should go to sleep now.

have to meet sarah tomolo morning to do my project.

have been waking up in the morning this past few days.
hmmmm.

anyhow,
yeahhhh.

i dont think im going to china.

already selected the companies in singapore.
i was given a lot of choices and have to pick my top 5.
well,
they are :

MUIS, Singapore Post, Pan Pacific Hotel, Walt Disney and Ministry Trade and Industry.

hmmm.
yeahhh.

chose it along with cik qinahhh.

hopefully i can get any one of them ahh.
insyaallah.

haiz.

now have to focus already ahhh.
on my studies i mean.

something puzzling happened to me though this past few days.

i realised that i dont like anyone anymore.
like serious.
hah.

it just fades away.

woahhh.
this is a record.
hah.

and also like now,
i dont have the want or need to like someone
and vice versa.

this is good.

i can concentrate on more important stuff.
heh.

maybe i should be like my fren.
get matchmaked or something.
hah.

hmmmm.
i wonder if i can get children without getting married.
heh. =p
[ dont think otherwise hahhh. ]

this weekend is really jam-packed.

how i wish i could be in more than one place at one time.
heh.

filled with meetings, outings and of course,
finishing up of projects. -_-'

haiz.

oh well.
i really should go now.

veryyy tiredddd.

i apologise to those who thinks that im neglecting.
im not.
im just busy. -_-'

haiz.

though i do miss my friends.
especially my 9 special friends. =(

updating next week sooonnn.

assalamualaikum.

hah.
has been like 5 days since i blogged.

oooh.

and in these 5 days,
as usual,
a lot of things has happened.

yeahhh.

apek already turned 19.
heh.
on 120106.

cedebahhhhh.

never mind.

i'll catch up with you sooon.
haha.

oh ya.

happy 19th birthday to afifah tooo. =D
which is today.
heh.

now i've covered the birthdays,
let me cover what has been going on these days.

hmmm.

one thing.
yeah.

he did call.
once.

ooooohh.

yeahh.
just had a hell of a day on thursday. 120106.

had a last mintue silat meeting.
things are not looking up that good.
haiz.

curse temasek polytechnic.
especially the ones handling the school.
pfffffff. -_-'

yeah.

came home with a heavy heart that night.
worried sick about the silat club.
and some more there is going to be a performance for open house.

was cooking maggi,
when my handphone rang.

was thinking and cursing of who the heck would be calling me,
and lo and behold,
it was him.

hah.

he hang up before i had the chance to pick up,
so i messaged him,
asking did he call or did he dialled the wrong number.
hah.

he called again straight after.

yeahhh.
i guess the call was what i was waiting for.

i didnt realise it until my friends told me that my mood was better,
the next day.
hah.

what else can i say right.
haha.

crashed fizah and saqinah's lecture on friday. 130106.
after my lecture was done.
all we talk through out was about each of our own.
hah.

realised that mine and fizah's had almost the same name.
haha. =p

it was the season for love.
among us that is.
haha.

then after that hang with khadijah.
and later on with sarah and saqinah.
yeahh.

had spent quite a lot of time with these people.
yeahh.

love them to bits now.
my nur ikhwan peeepz.
hehe.
[ i can rhyme too fizahh. =p ]

oh ya.

right now im having a dilemma.
about my attachment.

to stay in singapore or go to china?

haiz.
what a confusing decision.

there are a lot of pros and cons for each.
whereby in singapore, i at least would get allowance each month.
and, i have a lot of commitments here.

nur ikhwan, miq, muslimah night, silat, work?

yeahhh.
how sehhh???

if i go to china,
well.

it is a once in a lifetime experience.
and i get to travel,
like i've always dreamt of doing.

haiz.

4 months.
imagine 4 months being in china.

woahhh.

on saturday though,
had silat practice for the open house performanc next week.

went to my grandma's house after that.

and had a conference that night.
about preg talk.
follow up in east view secondary.

it was ok.
i guess.

but the ending,
was a bit weird,
and it was still confusing me till just now.

hah.

weird person. =p
what only sehhh.

sheeeshhhh. -_-'

no right to call people like that.
but oh well,
that someone at last apologised about his lack of words. =p

yeahhh.

i think its enough ahhh.
i mean for me to go on.

at least he did called me.
hah.

going to be really busy this week.

having lots and lots of meetings,
plus performances for the open house.

samba and silat.

sheeshhh. -_-'
i think going to quit samba ahhh.

tooo many things too be done.

oh ya.
not forgetting projects.
haiz.

two being due on my birthday sehhh.
haiz. -_-'

im tired.
really.

hah.

just cant wait until march comes.
yeahhh.

then by then,
a new semester would be soon approaching.
somehow.

so fasttt.

haiz.
going to miss the present committee. =(

oh well.

should go to sleep now.
update soon.

somehow.

haha.

assalamualaikum.

hmm.
i seriously need to start doing my projects.
haiz.

im soo dead bored.
of them ahh.
brain dead when it comes to do my projects. -_-'

i think im just going to finish this update and sleep.
arghhh.
maybe tomorrow morning i could do it.
insyaallah.

haiz.

just now i was trembling and shivering like mad.
for i had been patient and finally snapped.
my sister was too much.

if she was quiet like as her to do and
NOT fight back,
i wouldnt have lose it and hit her.
haiz.

now im slowly calming down.

right now,
im just feeling really frustrated.
with everything.

i think i should really calm down
or better,
sleep.

i wish.

just stayed at home today.
trying to get a start on my projects,
but to no avail.

yesterday after the meeting,
all of us went to kampung chai chee to eat.
haha.

it was really interesting.
because we watched this hindustan together.
it was on tv.
and all of us had fun watching it.

it was my first time watching hindustan with my friends
and laughing about the plot and all.
hehe.

it was cliche.
we could predict what happened and all in the movie.
hehe.

then at last,
four girls and a guy,
went to arab st.

it was fun.

talked to ashraf on our way home.
haiz.
it gave me that ray of hope.
that,
there might be a chance.

hah.

i know that i shouldnt be talking about hope.
but.
for once, it was a nice feeling.

and still now,
i cling to that ray of hope.

i am giving myself the benefit of a doubt.
that i do care for that someone.
just for now.

let me just admit it before,
i changed my mind.

hah.

its already the beginning of january.
that particular days are coming.

and i hope that it would be different this year.
as long as i get over the 10th,
im ok.

february comes,
yeahh.
even though its my favourite month but,
it was kind of bittersweet for me last year.

so.

hopefully i can get through this two months,
without any thought of what had happened last year.
yeahh.

and oh yeahh.

dont worry lahh people.
doesnt mean im sad,
im not happy.

this is just where i typed out my thinking
and unfortunately,
it turned out sad.
somehow.
haha.

yeahh.

maybe its stupid for me to think it about it more.
maybe just maybe for now.

im tired.

thanks to those who had been listening to me.
i really appreciate it. =)

till here then.
insyaallah.

may He will always be with me.