Monster War.

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

assalamualaikum.

hmmmm.
its wednesday. pffft -_-'

i was at the skool library.
i was freezing cold. im hungry...
and most of all IM BOREDD!!! =p
sheeesh.

waste of my time coming to skool,
when i found out that its just for 2 hours.

waliaoooo. i cancelled two of my meetings cause i thouught,
it would be the whole day, like the past 2 days had been.
haiz.

i could have enjoyed my sleep just now but, NOOO.
i had to make it for the training at 9am. =p
turns out that it doesnt matter if i was late larrr.
aiyahhhh.

i know i spend a bit more time sleeping.
hah.

its been an odd but nice couple of days.
the comfort. hmmmm.
its already there.

hmmm. and oh ya.
i think somehow my prayer had been answered.

alhamdulillah. =)

his odd question yesterday was adorable.
as in, i think if any other person who would have heard it,
would think that is he ok or something,
but in a way, it made me smile.

i cant explain it for its between Him and me.
He plans for everything in life. =)
im really glad.

his question really humbles me and at the same time,
it touches my heart.
and insyaallah, i believe that he is on his way to the Right Path.
it just takes time, same goes for me too.

the thing is,
it didnt take money nor materials to be touched,
and care for him even more,
but it was the words, the sincerity of it and actions,
especially by his question and
also his cute lion. =)

its just simple.
really.
but it is the simple things that matters the most.

to me that is,
for im just a simple person. =)

maybe,
it is possible for me to love him for Allah. =)

hmmm.
there arent words to describe what it is.
only He knows.

and even though, fate dont bring us together in the future,
im just glad that he has realise something.
that Allah has finally open up his heart more to Him.

i pray for the best of him and me.
insyaallah. =)

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Tuesday, April 04, 2006

assalamualaikum.

hmmmm.
believe it or not, i just had the urge to blog.
haha.

im supposed to be sleeping larrr.
have some stupid pre-attachment training at skool at nine. =p
but i dont know why,
im unable to sleep now.

haiz.

for one thing,
i didnt get the company that i wanted.
but instead,
i got posted to this company called newsman travel pte ltd.

weird thing is,
now that i realised it,
the name of the company and what i was being told,
didnt tally up that much. -_-'

i was told by my LO [ liasion officer ] that,
the business is selling mens' products.
and that im just supposed to be maintaining the website.
pffft. -_-'

i dont like IT larrr.
haiz.

some more,
the working hours sucks big time.
weekday : 11 am to 8pm.
weekend : 11 am to 3pm.

damn larrrrr.
the timing so awkward. -_-'

how to go out?
how to have meetings?
how to go to events?
how to meet him?
how to be involved in organisations?
how to participate in silat IVP?
how to finally pass my practical?

HOW TO HAVE A LIFE??!!! =p
ARGHHH!!!
haiz.

i almost cried in front of my LO larrr.
it was that bad ahhh.
especially after knowing my working hours.
haiz.

4 months i have to endure.
all the plans that i had planned,
all goes down the drain.
haiz. =(

i asked her why was i picked for this job,
then she said that the tutors picked me
because i have good complexion. -_-'

reason because its a cosmetics shop tooo.

oh mannn.
was i shocked to hear that.
haiz.

SHAAALLLOOOWW!!!! =p

MUISSSSSS!!!
WHY DIDNT I GET YOU??!!! =(

haiz.
sad abiss sehhhh.

but.
im trying to look at the bright side here.
somehow. =s

the pre-attachment trainings are damn boring larrr.
seriously.

haiz.
anyhow.
hmmmmmm.

i miss him.
i really do.

today,
something special happened i think.
for the both of us.

at least i know of how he's feeling towards me.
haiz.

just that,
the fact is still there about him.
thus it made it more complicated.

haiz.

i finally took up the courage and told him that,
the decision lies within him,
and that i couldnt do anything about it.

im preparing myself.
for something.

odd thing is,
im not freaked out like i used to for rasyid and adil.
but im feeling calm now.

its really a different feeling now.

two tests he had passed,
one more that i have to see.
whether is he the one for me.

libra and aquarius.
hmmm.
a match made in heaven.

i wonder.

whatever it is,
i do leave it up to fate.
to Allah.

for i want to love him for Allah,
and not for the sake of love itself.
cause i know that this will be something different.

something special.

something that,
even words could not be brought up to be explained.
but only felt,
and understood by little.

haiz.

i think thats all for me now.
have to sleep soon,
for i still have to go to skool larrr. -_-'

haiz.

wish me luck for my attachment.
and hopefully my love life.
insyaallah.

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