Monster War.

aSsaLamuaLaikum...

haiz. as usual. i dunno where my life is headin now. hmm. wait. i tink i have an idea ah. juz tat. haiz. seriously. i cant take this whole emotions thing no more. man. its surely enough for me. twice in a yr. haiz. im in serious need of money. haiz. who doesnt. bills bills bills. tats all me n my family has been gettin. haiz. where the heck am i goin to find more than $400. haiz. im tryin to get back on track. rite now, alhamdulillah. in study terms n frenz. somehow. haiz. im still tryin.

rite now, im seriously sad. i dunno wat else to do. yesterday was my fav uncle's death anniversary. 11 yrs. haiz. i reli do miss him. my uncle. he was nice to evry1 in my family. evry1 was happy. esp my nenek. haiz. family. tats wat you had made me think about. i believe that theres a reason for what has happened. im in mixed emotions now. i reli reli reli m scared of losing you. haiz. i reli dunno wat else to do except to pray tat evrytin can turn out okay. i dunno wat to feel. im angry. sad. all at e same time. but haiz. im wastin my time. juz thinkin abt tis when all i wan to do is to meet you. to talk to you. to be confronted by the truth. wat is it that made you changed. i dunno. im left in confusion. i wan to end tis. tis torment tat im goin thru rite now. why? WHY? im becomin frustrated. you didnt even bother to talk to me yesterday. you takled to evry1 else. except ME. haiz.

i reli dunno wat i hav done to make you treat me this way. i have no intention of hurtin u nor anythin tat can affect us. haiz. please tell me what it is. what went wrong. argh! i dunno. i seriously dunno. wat i noe is that whatever it is that i've said, i meant it. its the truth and nothin but the truth. haiz. i have to go now. didnt get much sleep. as usual. coz i cant sleep. now i have to go n straighten up my life. please give me a chance to settle.