Monster War.

aSsaLamuaLaikum...

hmm... haiya peepz. okie. basically now im juz feelin numb. tats all. haha. got what i want. the answer i mean. hmm. respect the decision. am just going to enjoy single life like i originally planned to after my break up. but had a slight detour. haha. well. the detour has helped me changed my life. going to take things one step at a time. my next plan is to..... ENJOY! haha. not totally ah. basically concentrating on my studies. working like crazy during the september break. catch up wit my frenz. facing up to my past n. befrendin him. ive realised my mistakes. somehow. hmm. now, im already beginning to accept criticisms from pple. you see. tis detour actuali made me learn somethin from life and the pple arnd me. n how i affect them or vice versa.

one thing is. yes. i did miss out on a lot of things. esp my frenz. my family. my religion. allah. i noe its hard for me to go back to that. i mean my old life. there are things tat i hav found to be fun. tat i will nvr thought of myself doin it last time. haha. like lepak n all. im tryin to cut it down. it has its advantages mainly tat im able to learn from other pple. hear abt their experience n evrythin. in a way, mayb, it made me a bit wiser.

however, there are some things tat im worried abt. like my health. i gues. im becomin more absent-minded n all. tats juz not me. i juz wan to apologise to those who i had been rude to or watsover. coz i nvr meant any of the bad things that ive done. i dun hold grudges. and im sorry tat my behaviour, myself made pple to hate or dislike me more. i dunno. im still tryin to find myself. yes. i do have a soft heart. some might noe, some might not. one of my fren had told me tat im too kind. pple walked all over me. hah! im not sure abt tat ah. mayb im juz like tis. basically i dun like to hurt pple. rather, i get hurt. anyhow. i tink tats all for now. time for me to sleep. wish me luck peepz. to change for the better. =)