Monster War.

assalamualaikum.

thus, it is another post from me.
woaahh.
haha.

well.
since im waiting for asar, meeting sarah and saqinah,
i guess,
what the heck.

just update.

well.
in a nutshell.

it has been hell for me this past weeks.
internally.
emotionally.
physically.

im drained out.

the truth is,
im dying to burst out.
but.

i have no idea who to go to.

no one has an inkling of what is going on.
its not their fault i guess.
some tried.

but.

i guess i became a social 'deterrer' this past time.
saying that im in a bad mood always.

thus.

im avoided.

haiz.
its not their fault but mine.

its been a tiring week for me.

i've been tested on my patience.
many times.

sometimes, i felt on just giving up.
but.
when i prevailed, i found out that the taste of achievement was really sweet.

i had prevailed.
i had been patient.

its a struggle.
between me and myself.

Allah is my Judge.
He's the one who has been with me all this while.

i am really thankful.

for those who had tried to understand and made me feel better,
i really appreciated it.
[ khadijah, nizam, fizah, sarah, aisha and saqinah. =) ]

i am trying to weigh out all the possible solutions to everything.
insyaallah.

i just hope that i can go through this.