assalamualaikum.

hmmm.
its the middle of the night of 3rd Januray 2006.

its ADI's birthday.
hehe.
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY~!!!!
[ man. already 19. sheesshh. i would be soon. =( ]

cant stop watching 'kal ho naa ho'.
ok lahh.
i know.
hindustan?

haha.

its just according to my mood now.
letting myself to watch this kind of romantic stuff once in a while.
for it has been 5 months since i actuali had experienced it.
romance i mean.

haha.

ever since that,
i didnt let myself to have an inkling or a notion of romance to interfere with my life.

it was both bad and good.

the bad thing is that for those who wants to get to know me better,
i didnt or basically i wasnt interested,
for it was enough for me.
in one year.

the good thing,
i didnt get hurt.
again.
for the third time.

what i have realised last year was that i am a romantic.
hah.

it was a surprise for some of my friends when they found out.
for me too.
haha. -_-'

i had the notion of being single and looking this year.
but.
i am going to throw away that notion.
for i am not going to look.

i have had enough.
i just wished that my heart believes the same thing too.

haiz.

school's going to start again tomorrow.
and finally my mum is having her day off for how many months of non-stop working.
sheeeshh.
bad timing. -_-'

today just basically went to miq meeting at fmsa.
thats all.
then go back home.
hah.

dont know ahh.

what to do with my projects. -_-'
very tired to think of it also.

ARGHHH~!!!! =O

just bloody tired.
heh. -_-'

its the same thing everyday.
nothings changed.

man.
the movie is soo sad. ='(

'kal ho naa ho' i mean.

haha.
well.
yeah.

haiz.

i am not going to allow myself.
to like.
to love.
please.
let me be strong.

why is it that im always thinking.
of him.
whoever he is.
hah.

damn.

stop thinking lahh fadz. -_-'

if only i have no feelings.
hah.

no use saying 'if'
for it wouldnt happen. -_-'

well.
what else can i say.

yeahh.

now im feeling numb.
again.

haha.

im going nuts. -_-'

keep listening to the ' farshi turab' song.
' dust is my bed '
yeahh.

just waiting for it.
heh.

please.
i dont want to think anymore.

haiz.

i am just a contradiction of myself.
sheesshhhh.

now im talking nonsense.

oh well.
i think its due time that i sleep.

i hope this new term would be fine for me.
hopefully.

that is all.