Monster War.

assalamualaikum.

hah.
been days. =p

ok lahh.

so far,
this few days has been,
confusing for me.

as i've said before,
school has started and so far,
i didnt make it for the lectures this week.
hah.

bad bad resolution. =p

let me see.
040106 wenesday.

suposedly the first training for silat temasek.
but there were complications.
as usual.

oh ya.

i got some free food too.
haha.
sensory evaluation for the applied science major project.
ok lahhh.
was free food anyhow.

ahhh.

tis the day that i got angry with him.
kind of.
woahh.
was holding in ahhh.

thank god for fizah. =)

the silat training didnt go as planned ahh.
becasue of the will@tp thingy,
space was taken up.

thus, we had problem where to train.
basically last minute stuff that happened.
hah.

the bloody skinny biAtch in a miniskirt.
man.
she is soo bloody irritating.
beacuse of her we cant train at the sports hall. -_-'

however,
it turned out okay.
[ well. all are guys anyway. i am the only girl. -_-' ]

might be having a performance during open house.
MIGHT only. =p

050106 thursday

hmmm.
hang out with khadijah and saqinah.
then went to cyber centre while waiting for the meeting at 6.

most of the members cant make it soo,
at last it was the same old people.
oh well.

my first time initiating a meeting.
was quite nervous actuali.
hah.

it went...
ok i guess.
but not the way that i want it.

oh well.

oh ya.
maybe i got irritated somehow,
a bit ahhh
the jibes about iz and me.

man.

i dont mind if both of us are single
but, im soo embarassed for one has another.
and.

ARGHH~!!!!

that someone bloody irritating.
sheeshhh.
what do you think i am. =p

after the meeting,
went over to the stadium to see the will@tp.
going to be for 24 hours sehh.

oh well.

then me and imran went over to asrul's lab to help do his project.
hmmm.
luckily i can do.
somehow.

found out i know his fren, amir.
haha.
from silat also and he's subhi's cousin.

what a small world right. -_-'

then me and imran went to sit somewhere near school,
to do both mine and asrul's project.
sat there until one.

asrul went there to send imran home.
i took a cab.
hah.
no walking. =p

went home and slept.
hah.
woke up at 6 just to finish my project.
sheeeshh.

missed both lectures today. =p

was late meeting khadijahh.
hehe.
then went to asrul's lab again.
help him out.
plus doing my project.

then in class finally found out can be handed in next week. -_-'

sheesshhh.
waste my time sehhh.
i could have slept. -_-'

talk with fizah.
haiz.

was quite helpful.
since i managed to talk about that matter.
which im still confused about.

do i just want to admit it or not?

i am still in this 'jiwang' mood.
which is pretty dangerous.
but at least,
i dont think about my ex anymore.

its a progress. =)

woahh.
its going to be almost a year already when i first got attached.
so many things can happen in just one year.
haiz.

and now,
i may like another.

something that im absolutely scared to think about.
another him.
for i know,
i would be hurt again.

and the hurt was really deep.
haiz.

imran told me that just better being single.
yeahh.
thats true.

who says that i wanted to rush into a relationship.
no no no.
a lesson learnt from last year.

no more rushing. =p

but,
its not wrong to care for someone right?
more.

last ramadhan was special for me,
for i had changed for the better.
thanks to that someone.

haiz.

i realise that i do.
but.
is it mutual?

well.
i think i just end it here for tomorrow got meeting in the morning.
at fmsa.
about miq.

sorry for being 'jiwang'.
haha.
though i had pass the 'jiwang'ness to arif and aisha.
heh.

when night time only,
will 'jiwang' with arif about kal ho naa ho.
haha.

oh well.

insyaallah i can stop.
hehe.