assalamualaikum.

hmm.
i seriously need to start doing my projects.
haiz.

im soo dead bored.
of them ahh.
brain dead when it comes to do my projects. -_-'

i think im just going to finish this update and sleep.
arghhh.
maybe tomorrow morning i could do it.
insyaallah.

haiz.

just now i was trembling and shivering like mad.
for i had been patient and finally snapped.
my sister was too much.

if she was quiet like as her to do and
NOT fight back,
i wouldnt have lose it and hit her.
haiz.

now im slowly calming down.

right now,
im just feeling really frustrated.
with everything.

i think i should really calm down
or better,
sleep.

i wish.

just stayed at home today.
trying to get a start on my projects,
but to no avail.

yesterday after the meeting,
all of us went to kampung chai chee to eat.
haha.

it was really interesting.
because we watched this hindustan together.
it was on tv.
and all of us had fun watching it.

it was my first time watching hindustan with my friends
and laughing about the plot and all.
hehe.

it was cliche.
we could predict what happened and all in the movie.
hehe.

then at last,
four girls and a guy,
went to arab st.

it was fun.

talked to ashraf on our way home.
haiz.
it gave me that ray of hope.
that,
there might be a chance.

hah.

i know that i shouldnt be talking about hope.
but.
for once, it was a nice feeling.

and still now,
i cling to that ray of hope.

i am giving myself the benefit of a doubt.
that i do care for that someone.
just for now.

let me just admit it before,
i changed my mind.

hah.

its already the beginning of january.
that particular days are coming.

and i hope that it would be different this year.
as long as i get over the 10th,
im ok.

february comes,
yeahh.
even though its my favourite month but,
it was kind of bittersweet for me last year.

so.

hopefully i can get through this two months,
without any thought of what had happened last year.
yeahh.

and oh yeahh.

dont worry lahh people.
doesnt mean im sad,
im not happy.

this is just where i typed out my thinking
and unfortunately,
it turned out sad.
somehow.
haha.

yeahh.

maybe its stupid for me to think it about it more.
maybe just maybe for now.

im tired.

thanks to those who had been listening to me.
i really appreciate it. =)

till here then.
insyaallah.

may He will always be with me.