assalamualaikum.

its time
for me to update again.

haiz.

okie.
first thing first.
i already post up some of the pics from the retreat.

and secondly,
uhmmm.
faz ehh?

alamak.

what can i say ehhh.
dont say it like that ahhh.
im not what you think i am.

sheeeshh.

im just a normal person.
His humble servant. -_-'

anyhow,
yeahhh.

the past few days.

hmm.
well, for one thing,
im still sick. =p

getting worser actuali but who cares.
heh. =p

met up with zarian sunday afternoon.
just hang out at saffron.
heh.

has been quite a while.

haiz.
catched up on things.
we had so many things to talk about.
heh.

then after that,
went to bedok corner with saqinah's family and sarah.

oooohhh.

was nice ahhh.
has been such a long time since i eat out with my family.
haiz.

then basically on monday,
came for open tech.
shheeesshh.
had to wait till thursday to present. =p

went to flavours after that to meet up saqinah and fizah actuali but.
i bumped into rufi and the others.
WHEEE~!!! =D

has been so long since i met them.
feez. sulala. and the chem engine guys.

end up hanged out with them for the first part of the day.

was fun ahhh.
for i missed them. =)

then by 5 plus,
had a lot of meeting up with the silat pple.
had to discuss a lot of stuff and all.

by the time i finished with musfirah abt muslimah nite,
it was already 6 plus.

sarah and khadijah was waiting for me.

went to flavours after that.
yeahhh.

then went home.
i was still feeling unwell. -_-'

while waiting for the bus,
i remembered something.
and smsed him.

found out he was in skool when i board the bus.

luckily it was just a few stops.
i alighted and went back to tp.

he was with his frenz at their 'clubhouse'.
heh.

he helped me with my stuff and then,
all of us played BINGO.
haha.

5 guys and a girl.

it was fun ahhh.
to see him in another element.
with his frenz playing games and not being the 'serious' person.

i was just wondering.

after that,
went home ahhh.

then today,
went to skool early to have breakfast with khadijahh.
if eating fruits and bubur is what you call breakfast. =p

just had no appetite to eat ahh.

a quite tiring day also actuali.
for i had to go back and forth,
from my house and tp.

had a meet up with amin abt pentas.

then asked feez whether want to eat.
heh.

i was picked up in skool and we went to saffron to eat.
heh.
was quite curious of how he drives the car.

it was interesting ahh.
talked with feez and everything.
for actuali, i miss talking with him ahh.

like last time.

when we went to the airport to study and everything.
heh.

well.
i just really hope that it was not because he was obligated to ahh.
cause then,
i would feel downright guilty. -_-'

so here i am.

having lots of meetings this week too.
but have to focus on my studies already.
exams in two weeks time. -_-'

silat. muslimah night. nur ikhwan. my family.
hmmm.

anyhow,
yeahhh.

i went down memory lane for awhile.
goshh.
it hurts ahhh.

i've been thinking back again.
about my past.
for all this while i was too busy to think about it.

but my past came back.
and im not sure of my present.

theres a choice that i have to choose.
but of course,
not now.
heh.

for you see,
i feel the same way that i felt last year.
it was the same situation.

but different people.

i care for both.
i really do.

both are extreme personalities of each other.
one serious and another funny.
haiz.

i think,
its not up to me to think this through.

i will leave it all to Him.
bertawakkal kepadaNya.
insyaallah.

maybe im just not fated to be with anyone.
who noes.
except Him.

haiz.

i will not make the same mistake twice.
from the past few years,
i have made mistakes.

took on some risks.

by the end of the day,
i will be alone.

but with Him. =)